This is going to be very short. I almost didn't write anything today, but I felt like I should.

I'm trying to be okay with not being in the middle of a chase. I wave the flag and then start running. For a little bit I have some company, but after a while I'm so far ahead of everyone that it's just not fun anymore. So I start to slow down in hopes that they'll catch up. When that doesn't happen, or I realize that they've turned back, I get frustrated and upset; afraid that I've gone too far and that there's no going back.

I know none of you will understand that reference, and several months/years from now, I probably won't either, but that's not the point. It works for me at the moment and that's all that matters. I have to keep reminding myself to breathe, pace myself. Slow and steady wins the race, right? Maybe if I just keep jogging along at a steady pace, someone will come on to my path. Perhaps I'll have a few others cross it and continue on their way. Perhaps others will come running back because they got too far ahead of me to even realize. But one day, I'll have that perfect competition. I just have to keep breathing.

I'm not completely sure, but I think I might get what you're referring to.
» randomjunk on 2015-03-24 04:52:24

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