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As pale as I am, you'd think sunscreen would be on the top of my list of things to own. Nope. As pale as I am, you'd think that I'd remember to apply sunscreen religiously before going outside for any outing that will take longer than to get from inside, to my car and back inside. Nope.

I went for a 5.5 mile hike yesterday. It wasn't supposed to be that long of a hike, but we were making amazing time so we decided to extend the hike to this place where you're supposed to be able to see a river off in the distance... when the foliage isn't completely grown in. I took a bunch of pictures, some of which didn't come out very well, but that's not the point. I rarely look over the pictures that I take until later on, when I'm no longer in the place that I was taking pictures. I usually don't care if they come out good or not; I like living in the moment and capturing images for me to look back over to remember the moment.

Thursday night I met up with a friend for dinner. The food was not very good; I'm kind of wishing I'd gotten just a salad instead. I feel bad when I leave so much food behind so I took it home as leftovers and ended up just throwing it out because it kind of became mush. I'm not sure if/when I'll go back to that place, but I will definitely be ordering something different next time.

Friday I woke up super pissed off and panicky, something that hasn't happened to me in a long while. The source of my panic was ridiculous, as it usually is, but I knew I had to deal with it. I went to the gym and ran for two miles. I came home and was still quite agitated so I took a longer shower than normal. When I got out of the shower, I saw some texts that mellowed me out a bit, but then I just became more annoyed at myself for having acted out in the first place.

I needed to go out and run a couple errands so that's what I did after I'd calmed down a bit. The teller at the bank could tell something was wrong, but I didn't want to talk about it. I drove up and put gas in my car after the bank and then just came back home. Another friend of mine invited me out to the dog park/lake, but I knew that due to the mood I was in, I'd not have been very good company. Even with the dogs around me. I needed to be able to clear my head before I went out yesterday.

The hike definitely helped clear my head and it put me in a much better mood. The plans that I'd made with another friend of mine for today, I've backed out of, due to the sunburn. We were supposed to go laze about by/in the river, but I don't want to be out in the sun anymore than necessary. I feel bad about bailing, but the last time we all went to the river, it was not a good day for me and I'd rather not ever repeat that. It's not fair for anyone involved. One of these days I'll be mentally and physically ready for a fun day on the river.

So for now, I'm spending the day indoors. I will be going out once my laundry is done so that I can get some aloe vera. I've been using aquaphor for now; it's not ideal for sunburns, but it's good for dry skin so it's an okay alternative until I can get the stuff that's made for sunburns. I'll probably go to Target for this since I also need to buy toilet paper and body wash. I really should stop at the grocery store on the way home to buy food for work for the week, but I just don't feel like stopping at a bunch of places. If I was hanging out with someone indoors, then I'd definitely be fine going out. But since I'm not, I'll be making as few stops as possible before getting back home.

Time to put the clothes in the dryer.

Until next time. . .