I've come to realize the biggest difference between how I can tell if I truly like someone compared to when I'm cool with it being a one-and-done thing. When I actually have an interest in someone, where I want it to be more than just a hook up, I tend to get really shy and awkward around them. Suddenly I'm afraid of being too forward and overstepping boundaries. When I don't want to try for a long term thing, I don't care about being abrasive because I'm not really invested in what happens long term. I'm forward, usually way more than I should be, and not afraid to say exactly what's on my mind. Another indicator that I'm in it for the long run? I blush a lot whenever they're around or when their name is mentioned, and I involuntarily smile. It's ridiculous and annoying at times. . .

Anywho, I really don't have a whole lot to say at the moment. Tomorrow is midweek and I'm glad for that. No big plans for the weekend. I'm hanging out with a friend on Sunday, which is long overdue. I need some Yoda time. No idea what we'll be doing, but I'm gonna make sure it's not something that's super time consuming. With work on Monday, I want to make sure I'm home at a reasonable hour so that I can get sleep. Monday's are hard enough even with a full night's sleep.

I still have to go shopping ... eventually. Perhaps on Friday. Or Thursday. I have a feeling I'm gonna want to just come straight home tomorrow after work. Wednesdays are always a hit or miss with the weirdos.

Haha, I definitely get shy and awkward around people I really like too. It makes sense, though. The stakes are higher, so you're much more conscious of how you're acting.
» randomjunk on 2016-01-06 03:19:36

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