I've tried typing this entry out so many times. And it's never come out the way I want it to. So much has happened in the last month and a half. Even more has happened since the last entry I wrote. It's been so hard to find the right words to use.

The panic episodes have gotten worse, and more frequent. The meds I've been put on for the first time in my life have been working, for the most part. I am on such a low dose that I can increase it on my own if I really want to, but I hate having to rely on meds so much that I'd rather just deal with trying to talk myself down from these episodes.

This next couple weeks is going to be rough. Hell, this next few months is probably going to be even more so. I'm just hoping they're not rough in the way that I'm terrified they will be.

I guess we'll find out on my next update. Whenever that may actually be.

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