Today is my first day off this week. I had to go out though. I had to go to the bank, Blockbuster and I decided I was gonna go up to work too. I haven't been up there on my day off in a while and there was a good crew this morning so I hung out for a bit. I got something to eat while I was there. That's actually the whole point in me going up there. Was to get free food. I didn't really want food from work but I knew that if I went anywhere else I had to pay for it. Technically I'm supposed to pay for the food that I get at work if I'm not working, but I never do. Well on occasion I pay for it, but for the most part I don't. And no one says anything to me. I just go in, make my food and eat it. None of them care. I've probably taken about a paycheck's worth of food. Oh well. As long as no one says anything to me I'm gonna keep doing it. I don't do it all the time either. Only every once in a while. Its too freakin hot outside to go anywhere. Man I cannot wait till I get out of this town. Anywho I'm watching Dane Cook's Harmfull if Swallowed DVD. He's so damn funny. There's absolutly nothing on TV right now. Hence the DVD. Oh, I'm thinking that maybe I've done something err, said something to Chris cuz he's not talking to me. I couldn't have done anything cuz of the distance between us. So I'm wondering if I've said anything to make him not want to talk to me. I'm hoping that he didn't find this and read it. Cuz like I said that would be weird. Oh well. So he's not talking to me. I went without talking to him for two years I'm pretty sure I can do it again. So I'm gonna be going to see Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest when it comes out. I'm looking very forward to it. I love the first one I'm sure I'll love the second one. Alright I have no idea what else I'm gonna write about. I'll get on later and write if anything interesting happens.
Ugh. I don't exactly know what to do. I finally stop liking David in that way so what happens? I start crushing on a guy that I hardly know anymore, that I haven't spoken to since graduation and that I'm most likely never going to see? What the hell is wrong with me? I don't get it. I only knew Chris for like maybe a year. When I graduated I never thought I'd even hear from any of these people again. But now thanks to myspace I found a few of them. Maybe David was right. Maybe I should just foget about having an account. I should just stick to this. I know I can rely on this site. No I think I'll keep the account, but ... Damnit!!! I wish I could figure out what to do. I know that if I had a boyfriend I wouldn't be thinking about him, but I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want a relationship with anyone. I'm just not interested. Whatever. Maybe if I don't talk to him for a while it'll stop the crush. Oh well. I'll write again later

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