This won't be very long. I don't have a lot to say.

I started to clean my kitchen today, but lost motivation rather quickly. I got as far as soaking my dishes in the sink. I have a dishwasher, but I don't have enough dishes to run a full load. Its a waste of water {the fact I don't pay for water is completely beside the point} and it saves having to use a detergent pac.

My mom and sister will be in town tomorrow. Tomorrow I need to actually get up and do stuff. I need to finish cleaning my apartment, since I'll be out all day Friday. Tomorrow is payday. I need to turn in my uniforms and pick up my last paycheck. Then I need to decide how much I want to deposit and how much I want to keep out to spend on my final day of leisure. It doesn't really sound like a lot, but it is.

I'm crying more often than not. The last three nights I have spent in tears. And today the tears came early. I'm not crying now, but with the way its been working lately, its too early to start. Either that or my eyes are just too dry. I know part of what it is. My depression mixed with stress, mixed with the knowledge and coming to accept that I probably won't be seeing my friends here ever again. Its a hard thing to accept, no matter how many times you've moved; no matter how many times you've had to say goodbye. Its never easy saying goodbye. But that's a sacrifice you have to deal with making when making the decision to move and start your life elsewhere.

This is it for this entry. I decided to make it a short one since my last few have been fairly long.
Again I want to give kudos to those who read all the way through my last entry, but I'm going to give special kudos to Randomjunk and The-Muffin-Man for commenting on it.

I don't know what to say about the crying, except that if you think you'll miss them that much maybe you could just keep in touch, so it wouldn't seem like total abandonment...
» randomjunk on 2007-07-12 02:47:32

just saying goodbye and going away for a few days is hard for me now [since it's been a few years]... so I can imagine what it'll be like when I finally move back to Fla for school. But that doesn't really count, cause I was saying bye to Anthony when they came.
Ma was kinda suprised when I told her she's gonna have company on Friday, but I understand the time w/ friends thing... hell, when we go back to Fla [just the 3 of us] I'm probably not even gonna want to see you and mom for spending time with people. If you want I'll help with the cleaning when we get there or on Friday while you're out k? Just don't be out too late and forget about me and ma :P
» MidnightMonkey on 2007-07-12 03:02:42

*hugs* That's the cycle of life.. I guess.. I think crying is a one way to destress sometimes, as long as you feel better after crying, go ahead and cry your heart out. Good luck with cleaning with your mother and sister.
» Nuttz on 2007-07-12 08:53:35

Yeah...
Goodbyes are always really hard for me, and they've been happening a lot lately. I can't imagine what it'd be like for you though, since my people are at least staying in the same state. I know it's not very masculine, and I try to convince myself that I get it from my mom (she's real prone to it), but I get emotional really easily, especially when it's time for goodbyes. What I'm trying to say is that I feel for you, even if my experiences have been anywhere near this degree. You'll be fine in Vegas though, I know it.

This might be a stupid question, but I'm not sure if you ever mentioned why you were moving. Just curious is all.
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-07-12 04:29:55

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