I've not accepted the end yet, nor will I ever be prepared enough to accept the end. But I am working on accepting that there is nothing more I can do to change what's going to happen.

I've almost accepted that whatever is supposed to happen will and there's very little say I have in it. I'm almost ready to let things run their desired course. I guess you could call it giving up. I'm sure the optimists will see it a different way.

That is the first step.

I gave in to something today. I won't say what, but it's not good. Simply take my word for it. Or pretend I never said anything in the first place. Either way works.

I've decided that I'm going to start reading Twilight now rather than waiting until the end of July as planned. I feel connected with Bella in certain ways and I'm thinking maybe I can get some ideas on how to cope with certain issues by letting my imagination run wild. It'll also distract me for a while; since I'll be reading all three books.

I want to try something. I don't know when I'll be starting it, but when I do, it's going to be torture. I guess you could say that I'm a glutton for punishment right now. I'm going to see exactly how long I can put up with it. It's going to hurt and it's going to be hard. I can only hope ...

I don't know if I'll be blogging over the next few days. I've got far too much on my mind and I don't want to sort it out yet. Even with the worse-than-normal headache it's kinda nice not focusing on anything specific.

Accepting how things take their course is a BIG step. Lots of people never get that far.

I want to read all the books again before the next book comes out. I'm struggling to finish The Host, but once I get that done...I'll be reading them again!
» lazypuppy on 2008-06-08 07:49:50

Well just take your time, and come back to blog whenever you feel ready. and Acceptance is a BIG step to anything, most certainly..

I still need 2 jump back into reading myself...maybe I can try 2 start on that while i'm at the park burning up, lol. Without A/C, I dunno what i would do, ya know? haha
» CPKviperpheonix on 2008-06-08 09:50:06

Accepting things as they are is good and it proves somethings about yourself although it means to give up something sometimes.

If reading Twilight would make you feel better, you should. I would start rereading mine is a few weeks time.
» Nuttz on 2008-06-09 03:35:49

honestly it is a good start rather than procrastinate because at least you try :)
» elitevillain on 2008-06-09 06:34:58

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