So after discussing things today ... without me getting mad, angry, upset or really any "normal" reaction that usually comes from a situation like today, we came to a compromise. Our lease is up at the end of this month and for the last few months we've been bouncing back and forth between staying another 6 months or moving. Well, a few days ago, the decision had been made that we extend the lease. Then this morning Jacob tells me that he's been looking at apartments in the city and thinks we should consider them to move in to ... when our lease is up ... in two weeks.

I actually did get pissed off because I didn't think the decision would change again, especially with it being so close to the end of our lease. So I pretty much started looking at every cheap apartment that there was available downtown and getting more and more pissed off every time I saw how expensive the apartment was compared to the tiny size of them all. That and the fact that we'd have to pay for parking and we'd not have our own washer and dryer any more. Needless to say, I was pretty pissed for the greater part of the shift.

On my way home, I had to calm myself enough that I wouldn't flip out over the situation. That I was going to discuss my feelings with him as calmly as possible. The fact that he was in a much better mood today compared to yesterday made things much better in the discussion department.

I'm slightly proud of myself for not having an overblown, way out of proportion reaction like I tend to have when I deal with a sudden change conflict.

With me actually going to school starting in June, the school that I'm going to is not very far from here, where we live now. I'm also going to be filling out a volunteer application at this place called PAWS, which is a wildlife rehabilitation center. That is also up in the northern part of the region. A good half hour drive north of where we live right now. If we were to move to the city right now, we'd actually be spending more money, rather than saving simply because the money we'd save from only having one car and not having to drive a distance to and from work or his school would be used up with me going to school and volunteering.

We've agreed to sign another 6 month lease, but at the end of that lease, we will be moving into the city. It will be closer to my work and his school. By then I will have already gotten used to the new routine of school and volunteering. I won't be getting used to living in a new place, going to a new school and getting used to a new "job" all at the same time. I want to have some sort of familiarity.

It was nice today. I'm still going to look into a counselor, for myself and the two of us, but for now, we're still hanging in there.

Yay to going back to school!! I think we all need something familiar when a lot of things around us are changing. It's gonna be the rock that keeps us whole. I kinda know how you feel about moving and going back to school and a new job... I'm there in a different way so yea.. Have fun while you're at it and there's no point waiting for the other shoe to drop. If it's gonna drop, it's dropping regardless of how you feel about it.
» Nuttz on 2011-04-14 05:23:36

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