welcome to my mind ...

It's May 1st, which means that I am a mere 3 weeks away from being in Texas. The final countdown is in progress. However, since I've been counting down for so long now and having actually kind of stopped counting down over the last couple weeks, it's not nearly as exciting as I originally thought it would be. Oh well. I'm still pretty stoked that it's getting closer.

It's been stupid hot these last couple days. Hell, today broke the record for hottest May 1st ever in Seattle. It peaked at 85 here in the city. It's currently 81 outside and inside. I have my tiny fan on the second setting and it's still not enough. The sun will be setting in the next hour, though, so hopefully then it'll cool down a bit. Then over the next few days it'll go back down to the 60s where it belongs this time of year. I understand that I need to prepare for this kind of weather since it'll be hot in Texas, but that is still 3 weeks away. And it's Seattle, for Pete's sake. It's not supposed to get this hot until July. Our summer officially starts on July 5th. Not May 1st. It's not even actual summer yet. I'm so ready for the rain and cooler temps.

In having a discussion with one of my supervisors last night, it was brought to my attention that the manager I had previously tried to date was, in fact, interested in me and had even asked about dating me, but was told it wouldn't be a good idea because he is a manager. Even if he's not my direct manager, he's still management and can have influence over other manager's decisions. So the only reason he turned me down was for that fact. That would also make sense why things didn't get awkward between us after I had asked him out. Normally when you ask someone out and they turn you down, it becomes awkward because suddenly they're aware of the fact that you're interested, but since the feeling isn't mutual, they try to keep from being weird which, in turn, makes things weirder. Finding out that a guy I was crushing pretty hard on had mutual feelings pretty much made my night.

Tomorrow is payday, but it's the rent payday so it's not really that special. I will be spending most of my check on rent and both storage units, along with a couple smaller bills, but that won't leave me with much. Which means that I will be grocery shopping for cheap items and pretending my debit card doesn't exist. It'll be a challenge, but if I have to avoid going to the cafe, even just to say hi, then so be it. The next paycheck I get will be the final one before I leave for Texas. It will also be the one that I make my final car payment on. It's almost surreal knowing that I only have just the one payment left. 6 years of my life I've been paying on this thing and it's finally coming to an end. Kinda crazy.

I went to the doc today to get my annual check up. She decided that a pap wasn't necessary because everything was normal last time, but still conducted a pelvic exam. She checked to make sure the IUD was still in place and swabbed for an STI test to be done. The test results will probably be available next week. I really think I'm okay, but it's better to be safe than sorry. She told me that she wants me to go to the dentist ... ugh. I really, really, really hate dentists. It's a stigma from when I was a child, but I guess with my car being paid off this year, I might as well get all that I need to taken care of. I'll go in for a consult and get a referral to a orthodontic surgeon to get my jaw fixed. Then, once that's finished and healed up, I can finally get a complete cleaning. I think having to get that fixed is a huge part of why I've avoided the dentist for so long. Especially after getting it confirmed a couple years ago that I'd need to get it done before having my entire mouth deep cleaned.

She also wants me to start exercising again, which I really need to do. It made sense to stop when I was working an extra 25+ hours per week, but with the max number of extra hours only being 18, I have plenty of extra time to go work out. Also, my coworkers have been trying to get me to join them in the gym for weeks now so I guess this was the final push to get me to finally accept their challenge/invitation. I do still need to buy a sports bra, but Victoria's Secret is always having sales so perhaps there will be one soon that I can take advantage of. It'll be fun working out with them, though. I just need to get off my lazy ass and finally do it.

Alright, I think this is long enough. 25 minutes of typing usually gets me to this point, though. It's also been a little bit since the last one so there was some stuff to update. Not sure if it'll be this long again between this and the next one; guess we'll find out.

Until then. . .