welcome to my mind ...

I leave for San Antonio tomorrow and I'm actually getting pretty nervous. There are a lot of factors that contribute to the nerves, some of it being the fact that I was 9 years old the last time I took a vacation to a city I'd never been to. This will be the first time Vance and I will be getting together since the connection flourished. It's a different experience falling in love with someone via computer screen, but knowing who this person is at the same time. I'm also meeting his dad for the first time ever and it has me a little nervous. I'm not nearly as concerned with meeting his dad as I am his mom this coming September. I have a poor history with moms so that one has me nervous already.

It's only been 5 months since I took my last vacation and I'm kind of having trouble grasping the fact that I'm already taking another week off from work to travel somewhere. Having this second job really has been a nice pay off. The flight will be significantly longer than what I'm used to and I'm going to a place that will be all new to me.

Despite the fact that I've been counting down to this and planning this out for the past couple months, it feels incredibly spontaneous. This isn't something that I normally would even consider doing. All of this is new to me. And that scares the hell out of me.

Other than all of that, I'm really excited that this trip is finally here. I'm mostly packed. I have to get up in the morning to do a final, last minute load of wash before I head out. I really hope I remember to bring everything. My ear buds will be one of the first things I pack up in the morning. With this being a 4 hour flight, I will definitely need some music to tune out the people around me. I'll have a book with me as well. Hopefully that'll be enough of a sign for others to leave me the fuck alone.

My next entry may or may not be from the Central Time Zone, but there will definitely be one once I return. If you're friends with me on Facebook, keep up. There will be lots of check ins via Foursquare and a good chunk of pictures. So kind of like Vegas, but with a touristy vibe.

Until then. . .