I'm so fed up with my job, its insane. Today was just a really freakin long ass day. It was busy cuz I had to make up for the weekend {though we were closed yesterday, it must have been busy Saturday cuz we were out of a lot} And then customers were coming in an almost constant stream. Not busy, but steady. Which is even worse; I'd rather it be 2 hours of busy and then nothing instead of 4 hours of every 10, 15, 20 minutes. It blows.

I have tomorrow off, but then I don't have off again until next Tuesday. Like ... four people requested Saturday off again so I have to fill in. Fuck this job.

On a different note, I've narrowed it down to Justin and Stuart. I'm not really sure which one I want more. I want both of them, but for different reasons. The reason David is out of the picture is cuz I confronted him about what happened on Friday in the office and I made sure {for my own knowledge} that it was a one time thing and that it wouldn't happen again. He agreed that it was just a one time thing. It also means though, that we're cool again. That was sort of a test, I guess, to determine if it would be uncomfortable as it would have been in the past. But since it wasn't everything is back to normal for us. I'm glad that its back to normal, but the fact that it took two years isn't saying much. Whatever.

Anywho, I want Justin because I like being able to hang out and go out with him. I'm comfortable going out places with him. And he makes me feel good. But when it comes to the physical attraction, its just not there. Gary seems to think I'm just using him to get free shit; which is not the case. When I have the money available, I'm gonna start paying for stuff regardless if Justin wants me to. This will {sort of} make up for the fact that I'm not giving him anything physically.

With Stuart, the physical attraction is there. And I like going out places with Stuart. Its just that with his jam packed schedule and my odd schedule, we hardly have time to see one another. He was here last night for a few hours and there's a possibility he'll be over again tonight. I somehow doubt he'll make it tonight though. Oh well. I can hope right?

I hate not being sure about this. This sort of makes me feel like I'm back in high school. You would think it wouldn't be too hard to decide; just weigh out the pros and cons of each situation and determine it that way. But I'm one to have the bad habit of over-analyzing things so its not that simple for me.

Ugh.

I bought more Wheat Thins {the Sundried Tomato and Basil kind} and two more pints of Ben & Jerry's Strawberry Cheesecake ice cream. I also bought more food food, but that's not as important to me as the Wheat Thins and Ben & Jerry's.

Alright, I'm gonna chow down on my Wheat Thins and watch Planet Earth on the Discovery Channel. I'll write again whenever.

AWW.. ThANKS for kind words. I will take it easy in Vegas! nite
» kkama67 on 2007-04-10 02:58:49

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