As much as I like thinking about David, its not fun when the things I think about aren't going to happen. I can't act on my thoughts. I would give almost anything to have a memorable night with him, but that's just a bunch of wishful thinking.

Its a struggle right now cuz I want to think about David, but I don't want to think about him as much as I am. I want it to go back to the way it was before. Even then, though, I still thought and dreamt about him much more often than I rightfully should have.

The way I feel about him and the way that I care about him, I can't put into words. I can't describe the difference between the way I care about him from the way I care about others. I'm not sure why he holds a special place in my heart as he does.

He's not my boyfriend and never has been, but the kind of relationship that we have with each other ... even that I can't put into words. Its hard to describe the relationship we have.

I have no idea how he feels about me. I doubt very, very much if he feels even remotely similar to how I feel. I know that there has to be at least some sort of small, distinct liking that he feels towards me, but I don't know how small/large that feeling actually is. And I don't know if I'll ever find out. I'll probably be left just wondering and hoping it was actually there.

Maybe I'll find the courage to tell him how I feel before I leave. Expecially with the odds of us keeping in contact are as low as they are, I might be able to get everything out and tell him how I feel and how I've felt. But I'll have to wait and see how things go and what happens.

Alright, I still have stuff to write, but I need to finish getting ready for work. I'll probably write more later tonight.

So who do you like better... Justin or David? And is David the same David that took your friend quiz on the sidebar?
» Zanzibar on 2007-06-03 06:11:41

Sounds to me that you should be with this David guy instead of Justin.
» Southern on 2007-06-03 07:04:19

Its hard because that guy is on your subconscious mind. It is like trying to make a dream go away. Maybe he is the one
» kKaMa67 on 2007-06-03 08:39:21

Good luck figuring out.. it sounds really complicated.. If he left a bigger impression on you than Justin.. Why not consider him?
» Nuttz on 2007-06-04 12:38:09

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