I said last night that I would write more today, so here it is. I've also uploaded the pictures to my gallery like I said I would. You should check them out, even though they're nothing special.

I'm not liking it here so far. I don't think I'd rather be back in Tucson, but I haven't started any kind of routine here yet. I think once I get into a routine and actually get out on my own, living in Vegas won't be as bad.

I'm really missing Stuart. I was talking to him last night, like I usually do, but this time I had to not try and convince him to come over. I'm so used to trying that it was difficult for me not to.

I don't think he {or even I} realized just how much I like him. He's the one that I miss the most right now. He's the reason why I was crying every night for a week before I left Tucson. I keep picturing him in my head and I keep wishing, if there was a way I could see him please make it happen. But I know that he won't come out to Vegas just to see me. Just like I'm unable to make a random trip back to Tucson just simply to see him. I'm hoping that time and distractions will help me not be so upset about leaving him. {this is the 4th guy that I've lost due to me moving away. you would think that by now I'd have learned not to get attached to anyone with the indefinate knowledge of me moving, but obviously its much easier said than done}

I feel completely alone right now. I'm alone in a house full of people. Its not a very good feeling to have. I'm so used to living on my own, its going to be very difficult to get used to there being people around me. Having to conform to the ways of the house instead of me making up my own rules.

I guess it wouldn't be as bad if I had my own room where I'd have privacy, but I'm sleeping on the couch cuz all three rooms are occupied. Three of the now five people in the house smoke. Again, I wouldn't really mind as much if it were just my mom smoking {even though I want her to quit}, but I can't even ask them to kindly step outside to smoke. This is not my house. I have no say in this situation.

Alright, I have plenty of other things to say, but I need to get some things done. I'll write more probably later on tonight.

don't you hate that...you can't wait to get away from where you are and then you wish you were there all over again :(
» lazypuppy on 2007-07-16 06:23:08

Bleh
I can't stand smoking. My friend does it, and everytime I see him stick a cigarete in his mouth I always yank it out and throw it somewhere. I'm mostly just playing around because we laugh about it, but deep down my actions are more than just a joke.

I looked through your gallery...and I had a nerd moment, thinking that the dam reminded me of where Sector-7 was keeping Megatron in Transformers, which I FINALLY saw btw ;-)

I feel really bad for you...not just moving and all, but especially missing people. I can't really say I know what it's like since my experiences come from a different context and of less severity, but I can relate to the lost, remorseful kind of feeling. You'll find someone to fill the void in Vegas soon....because come on, it's Vegas, you can't stay lonely for long ;-)
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-07-17 01:18:28

I can't stand smokers too and thank god I don't stay with smokers or I'd probably finish a bottle of perfume a week.

I know how you feel right now... I was much anticipated to the prospect of not listening to my brothers and grandmother all day long but now I really wish I'd get to go home after class everyday and not back to the hostel.
» Nuttz on 2007-07-17 05:00:47

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