There's nothing that anyone can really do to help me. Time is about the only thing that will help this.

I'm very confused about the way that I feel for Stuart. I wish there was a way that I could get over him without losing him. I love staying up to talk to him and joke around with him. Even the other night when we actually talked about what was going on in my head and his, though some of the things bothered me, it didn't actually hit me until after we stopped talking for the night. That's when I got upset.

I really want to see him again. I wish that there was a way for us to somehow be together in the future, but the odds of that are thinner than a piece of paper. Among many, many reasons one of them is that he doesn't like me in the same way. I'm not sure if him telling me that hurt more or him telling me that he was still into his exgirlfriend too much to put much emotion towards me. Both of them hurt me, but I'm not sure which one was worse.

Anywho I haven't really been looking too intently for a job. There's not really a whole lot I can do right now because I have very limited access to the car seeing as how my mom works during the day. She's off work tomorrow and Friday so hopefully then I'll be able to go out and apply at places. Due to my limited access to the car, I'm limited to where I can apply at. I need something near by so that I can get the car and head right out to work. If I work too far from the house it would limit my available hours even more than they already are. Hopefully I'll find something close by that pays well.

I guess that's it for today. My mind is too "focused" on how confused I am about Stuart. I'll write again whenever and hopefully then I'll have a more clear mind.

Um.... could you use the bus? Or bike?
» randomjunk on 2007-07-19 12:09:20

I don't really know what to say about the Stuart business. I'd give some condolences and helpful advice, but let's face it. I don't feel anything about this situation except for what you blog about. You on the other hand are experiencing it full force, so anything I'd say would just be a waste.

Eh, I haven't been working that hard to get a job either. I had an interview yesterday @ Top Foods, but apparently they aren't hiring under 17. Gee, thanks, maybe the question on the application should be "Are you older than 18 years of age" instead of 16. Bleh. I don't want to think about a car yet, my parents are already dishing out so much $$$...

I do this just to make Randy feel inferior.
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-07-19 02:56:55

I really can't help you with Stuart.. Hope you'll get a job which is near and pays well.. Not having a car is really a pain..
» Nuttz on 2007-07-19 04:43:57

that sucks about your relationship with Stuart :( I hope you figure something out.

How far do you live away from the strip? Couldn't you get a job at one of the casinos?
» lazypuppy on 2007-07-19 09:23:23

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