Its at this point in time that I'm greatful for books. They keep me distracted. I'm now reading my third book in the last, I dunno, couple weeks. I've still got two more books that I know I'm going to read, as well as finishing the one that I'm reading now.

I haven't talked to Stuart in a few days. It pains me, but I knew it was going to be like this. I really don't know what I want anymore. I know that I want to see him and I want to talk to him every night, like I used to, but I ... I dunno. Reading every night keeps my mind in the book and off Stuart. It still upsets me a little, when I put the book down and look at the clock, knowing that I went another night without talking to him. Ugh, I need to get over him. Its starting to happen, but its still going to take time ... and more distractions.

Another minor dilema I'm having right now is that I'm doing something I shouldn't to keep my mind off Stuart. I'm putting a lot of focus on Charlie. I haven't even seen him yet {and there's always that part of me that's afraid it won't happen.} I've only been talking to him on myspace. But the way that I'm always trying to think about him instead of Stuart is making me like him, probably more than I should. If he doesn't like me in return {which I sort of doubt he would} it could cause for some awkward situations and an unpleasant end to the friendship that we have. I don't want that to happen.

I keep picturing how things would go if he were to like me; it makes for a much more pleasant thought process, but that's all it is though. I need to keep my mind from wandering too far ... but I'm afraid that it already has. Its awesome isn't it? How you always manage to go from one complication right into another.

Anywho, I need to finish reading Twilight and then start and finish New Moon. I don't think I'll be getting Eclipse the day it comes out, but maybe the day after. So I should be occupied with these books for at least another week.

Oh, my b-day is 2 months from today. I'm nowhere near as excited about it as I was 2 months ago or 6 months ago. I think I built it up too much.

Alright, I think that's it for now. I'll write again whenever.

Awkward situations are no good. =/
» alexsedotcx on 2007-08-05 06:10:24

Awkward situations are never good.. I can't wait for my Eclipse to arrive! I hope it's in a good condition or I'm sure going to be disappointed because I don't spend nearly $40 on shipment and handling to get a spoilt book. I can't wait to read it.

Your birthday is on October the 8th?? I'll write it down somewhere.
» Nuttz on 2007-08-06 06:53:45

Bleh.
I feel your pain. Sort of. I have a friend whose so important to me...and she has a boyfriend of two years. Only now things are starting to get shaky between them, and I don't know what to do. I want to send the messages, but I'm afraid that if I stick my head out too far it might get chopped off. I'd rather play it safe than risk ending the friendship.

DISTRACTION. Right here. Look right here. See I've distracted you for about a minute, that's one less minute that you have to spend reading now :P Have fun being distracted...
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-08-06 06:16:28

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