I only have about half an hour left of alone time. Then I don't get any more until next Monday. I wasted my alone time both yesterday and Monday by sleeping. Today, I only wasted 3/4 of it by sleeping. I got up in time to have two hours of alone time.

When Jean gets home, though, I'm not going to turn my music down. It doesn't seem to bother her too much and right now I'm not playing the techno that I have been the last few days. I had to shut it off yesterday because it had started to bug my mom. I don't really care if it gets on Jean or Steve's nerves. The more that bug them, the sooner they might be compelled to move out. But this is my mom's house so I'll respect her.

I seem to have made my "bedtime" around 5am. The last few nights, that's about the time I've been laying down to sleep. Mostly its because I haven't been getting up very early and because I have trouble putting down a book that has a hold on my intent interest. Oh well. I can only hope that getting a job will regulate my currently irratic sleeping patterns.

As I mentioned, I'm reading the book Absolute Fear. Its got me turning the pages. I keep losing track of time. The only thing that alerts me of what time it is, is when Jean's alarm goes off at 3:30am and then she leaves to go to work around 4:45am. Then again, whenever I'm reading, I tend to lose track of time. I can ignore almost anything that's going on around me, even the obnoxious yelling the cats sees fit to do at all hours of the day and night. I get that from my mom though. She could be reading a book and not even realize that someone is standing next to her trying to have a conversation with her until someone touches her. Its kinda funny to watch people who don't know. They think she's purposely ignoring them.

Anywho nothing exciting has happened to me since the last time I wrote. I was going to write an entry yesterday, but I couldn't even think of how to start it. After 5 minutes of staring at the screen, my screen saver came on and I gave up trying to figure out an entry.

The wedding dream that I had a few nights ago is still with me. Whenever I close my eyes, I see myself in that dress. Standing at the alter with my soon-to-be husband in front of an audience of people. I realize that I'm feeling happiness and sadness at the same time, though I'm not sure why.

I think I've discovered why I had that dream and why its seeing fit to bug me as it is. I was supposed to be getting married this year. For real. Maybe my subconscious is reminding me of that, though I don't know why it would. It doesn't seem like a very descript reason, but its a sensible one.

I want to go for a walk; I can feel my leg muscles starting to weaken, but its just too hot. You can bet on it though, that once it starts to cool off I'll be walking on a regular basis ... unless I have a car. Then it might not be every day, but I'm still going to try.

Alright, I need to get this out. There's this song that everyone needs to listen to. Actually, there's two, but I can't remember the name of the other one. So once I ask my mom what it is, then I'll tell you. Anywho, back to the one song. Tim McGraw - Don't Take the Girl. I don't care if you don't like country, you need to listen to this song. And don't just simply play it and say you listened to it. I mean really listen to the words being said. Its an emotional song, not in the sense that you'll cry your eyes out, but if it doesn't put at least some sort of emotion into you, the I'd check to see if your heart was still functioning properly. {If you're too lazy to go find the song yourself, I'll make it really easy for you. Simply scroll down to my playlist at the bottom of my page. The song is on there}

Okay, now that I've gotten that out, I'm good. I also don't know what else to write so I guess this is the end of the entry.

That song helped rekindle my love for country music.
» Dilated on 2007-08-29 04:19:59

Thanks. :D
» middaymoon on 2007-08-29 11:06:01

I have to be in the mood to listen to songs like those, and when I say "those" I don't mean country...I just mean sad songs. The only song that's really been able to effect me was Dance with my Father by Luther Vandross, only because I have a personal connection. Otherwise it just doesn't work for me, and believe me I've checked to make sure my heart is functioning properly.

And for the record, sleeping is ruins my day because it feels like I've missed so much of it. I guess that won't be a problem much longer since school starts next week... :(
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-08-30 08:02:48

In reply:
When I make it to day 200, I doubt I'll start 100 words a day. It can be hard to even manage 100 words a day sometimes. My life isn't the most exciting and coming up with something to write every day is sometimes impossible. I'd hate to have to try to think up 200 words on nothing.
» money4blogging on 2007-08-30 09:37:11

it's anh's birthday
» Dilated on 2007-08-30 11:11:00

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