... of telling me that I shouldn't have left Tucson.

~ This is the 4th or 5th time that the cat has decided to use my bed/blanket as a litter box.

~ I've been here 2 1/2 months and I still don't have a job.

~ I still don't have my license because we got into a car accident the day after I got my permit and the car, though still drivable, is messed up. And I've been afraid of driving since.

~ I'm completely miserable, but can't do or say anything about it because there are people all around me. ... and cutting is bad for you.

~ Out of the 4 other people in this house, only one person seems to care about my well-being.

My depression seems worse than it has been in a couple years. I'm not happy here. I knew that I wouldn't be very happy coming into this situation, but I didn't think it would be like this. I had plans and goals. None of which I've reached. The way I had it planned out, I would have been marginally happier living out here than I currently am.

The only thing I seem to be able to do right now is ask why? and not get an answer back. What the fuck does God have planned for me that is keeping me in this misery? Why am I dealing with all of this? What the hell is the reason for all of this?

What did I do to deserve this?

So why did you leave Tuscan?
» Xboyz on 2007-09-27 11:21:40

Sorry I eman Tucson
» Xboyz on 2007-09-27 11:21:54

Ahh.. Damn this typing mistakes... *meant
» Xboyz on 2007-09-27 11:22:17

I'm sorry your not happy...Maybe you could go back to tuscon? Is that an option?
» lyndeep on 2007-09-27 12:07:20

Look at the good things though... You get to be around your sister and your mom. You don't have to work at a job you hate anymore. Obviously you could probably find more positives than I can, so just look. It's pretty easy to see the negative when you're looking for it.
» money4blogging on 2007-09-27 08:47:53

Oye... you sound like a Puritan. Well, except you're not trying to figure out what you did wrong. :P
» randomjunk on 2007-09-27 09:28:52

Awww... Not everything will go according to plan dearie.. But maybe this would be a blessing in disguise. Cheer up. Maybe you'll stumble upon something nice, who knows?
» Nuttz on 2007-09-28 12:58:38

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