Maybe I feel like and think that I'm ready to have a job and get on with my life, but what if the higher ups {God, if you will} has bigger plans for me and to Him I'm not ready yet.

I really do hope the reason for this elongated period of nothingness reveals itself soon. I'm so sick of feeling worthless and hopeless. But with nothing going right, it seems to be all I can feel.

Three months of sleeping on the couch is definately starting to take its toll on my back and neck and hips and shoulders. I can't sit or turn certain ways without being in pain. Even laying down in certain positions hurts now. The fact that I already have a hip problem doesn't add to it. I already can't sit/stand/lay in one position for too long without being in pain. Sleeping on the couch is like adding insult to injury.

To add even further insult to injury, I have no job, I have no money, I have no license or car and I have no friends. At least none that live close enough to be able to do anything with.

What could possibly be the reason for my suffering?

And when will it end?

It will end when my friends quit pulling their stand-off on going to Vegas and actually GO. So I can take you and we can all go out and party for once. You'll be okay, Cher, you sometimes just gotta get up and do things for yourself and not think about the higher ups wanting to save you for something. You can't sit around in a puddle of mud forever. Once in a while you gotta get up and clean yourself off and feel the refreshment of a shower.
» PsychoEnigma on 2007-10-10 11:36:44

Ouch! I hope the pain and aches will go away soon and that Jean will move out soon and give you back your room. Maybe instead of sleeping on the couch, you could sleep on the floor instead. It might help.
» Nuttz on 2007-10-11 02:49:45

Wow, you have to sleep on the couch in your own HOUSE! Ridiculous! How come you don't have a job? You're just looking for one? Well hopefully those people will get out soon. And as soon as you get a job I bet you'll start making friends there, too. How come you don't have a license?

As for me, it would be really cool to go to the moon, but I've been mostly studying Mars, so I don't know if they would pick me. I would totally go to the moon in a second, but I don't think I would go to Mars because it is too far away!!
» Zanzibar on 2007-10-11 02:47:12

(I mean, I wouldn't want to spend like two years in space... it takes like 6 mo to get there and then they would have a 1 yr mission and then 6 mo to get back! All that time your muscles would be slowly deteriorating! glech!
» Zanzibar on 2007-10-11 02:47:58

well, good luck on that! I'm sure any company would be lucky to have such an employee as you. :D And good luck on the car thing, that totally sucks about the car. My car got hit-and-run while it was parked on the street and it was going to cost a fortune to fix. Since it stills works I didn't even ever fix it I just jumped on the hood til it looked a little less crumpled.
» Zanzibar on 2007-10-11 08:58:44

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